Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Quality of life takes away from my freedom

Texas has lured me in once more with the quality of life unobtainable in NJ. I lived in NJ for three and a half years before I was forced to take my responsibilities rather then my relationships. I had/have wonderful friends in NJ I had to leave in order to make sure I kept them. I was on the verge of becoming an unspoken burden. I visit often (3 times a year). Wedding have been my scape goat. My friend Cat, my BEST friend lives in NJ with her husband Tom, dog Blue and her cat Sly Guy. She and I talk every day like I still live up the road from her. She's even helped me cook from time to time sharing recipes her family passed to her. Her family has become my own. You normally think of the east coast residents as a sort of busy, callused people. While the Sapranos lay that idea pretty thick, the truth is they are very traditional and family oriented. Money I 've learned isn't freedom at all, will is. Will to do what money tells you, you can't do w/ out it's permission. You're life is what you decide to make of it. I'm learning with the sounds of my popping joints, faded relationships, loss and joy's that no one can really tell you what is right.... no one really knows. You have to keep in mind that your souls happiness is priceless and is the only thing you can take with you. Make sure it's full and content once you leave Mother.